Emotional tunami

This year will be the 80th anniversary of both the end of the war between China and Japan and of the shooting death of my grandfather during the war. and finally I could identify and visit the place of his final place. There I pray that his soul rest in peace in the heaven.
During my prayer,no special emotions came to my mind. However, when I returned to Japan safe and sound, suddenly the sad feeling flooded me like a tsunami because I thought how he must have felt sorry when he realized he could not return to Japan at the time of being shoot. My feeling was intensified because I also had a difficult time during the return flight as if I had been somehow involved in the experience of the war.  Maybe my grandfather somehow played a part to make me experience how he must have felt during this time by the power of his presence. This may be the evidence that his soul still seems to be alive. Maybe my grandfather somehow played a part to make me experience how he must have felt during this time by the power of his presence. This may be the evidence that his soul still seems to be alive.